Psalm 27:13-14 (MSG): “I’m sure now I’ll see God’s goodness in the exuberant earth. Stay with God! Take heart. Don’t quit. I’ll say it again: Stay with God.”
Proverbs 3: 5-12 (MSG): “Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he’s the one who will keep you on track. Don’t assume that you know it all.”
I suffer from too much ambition. I see myself doing so many great things, I feel as though I have so much potential. I’m never satisfied with complacency; I get bored easily.
Because of this, I find myself chasing shadows often. I’m always looking for the Next Best Thing, and oftentimes that involves me compromising my values or talents for something that can be considered low-hanging fruit.
I find the message in the devotional I’m currently studying, Wait and See by Wendy Pope, extremely relevant. Since I’ve graduated college, I’ve embarked on many different journeys to try to establish my adult life. I’ve lived in New Jersey, New York City, Chicago, and Oakland/San Francisco. I’ve attended grad school (but dropped out after a semester), held ten different jobs, and lived in six different apartments. Yikes.
I believe that the reason I haven’t found something God-purposed for my life yet is because I never once consulted him on any of the things I’ve done. I never asked Him to guide me, never asked Him to show the way.
I also believe that I never waited and stayed faithful to God. I recognize that God has anointed me and that He wants to do something through me just as He did with David. But He also wants me to be faithful to Him. God is always faithful if I follow Him with my whole heart, even when what I’m doing isn’t glamorous. So long as it’s godly, God can work with my faithfulness.
I’ve got to be willing to work with what I have, not with what I’m waiting for. I can’t say, “I’ll be able to serve God much better once I make $x, am living comfortably in this city, and have no debt.” Faithfulness starts now. God’s plan for my life starts now.
It’s my third month living in California and guess what? It hasn’t gotten any better. I’m trying to stay faithful and use this opportunity to figure out where God wants me next year. Where am I headed, God? What do you have planned for me in Chicago? What can I expect in California? If nothing, can you help me remain faithful to you during this waiting period?